Thursday, October 15, 2009

Battle of the Cardio-monster!

Today i am REALLY stressed and annoyed at the concept of cardio... well when i really sit down and think about it like i have before... i did have results when i only worked out for 30-60min (cardio) for 3-4 days. I remember that happening... but now its like people are telling me i shouldnt work out the way i do if i want to lose weight. What ive been planning was 5-6 days a week of 45-60 (usually 60) min of cardio (running/walking/elliptical) and i also do weight training now twice a week... (yess i still feel sore so i guses im doing something right).

Recently thought i have been feeling a bit more anxious about my weight loss because i feel like i havent lost weight this week... I say 'feel' because i dont have access to my scale (i dont agree with those scales at the gym or anything that isnt digital)... and this measuring tape i have at the house im in now, says i gained half an inch... so im pretty annoyed. AND NOW i want to go run after school but my trainer and everyone else in the world says i shold only do 4-5 days of cardio (and not even a hours worth either!)... so now im like.. what am i supposed to do? i love running!!! -_-

So i guess what im gonna do is... go home... and not do long-intense cardio... but those short 8 minute bursts of cardio on the 2 days i shouldnt be doing full on cardio...

SO for this week... by monday, i would have done... 5 days of intense-long cardio (45-60) - mon/wedns/fri/sat/sun paired with 2 days of strength training (wedns, sat). Even though my trainer wants me to do 5 days/30min or 4 days/45min... im gonna try my way first. That means im gonna have TWO days of rest... usually i only allowed myself 1 day of full rest. BUT like today... i was planning on doing my normal cardio but instead im gonna do short cardio bursts for 8 min (im gonna do abs/dips/lunges/just random shit to get heart rate up for short periods of time.)

Hopefully this works... and another annoying thing is that i admit that ive been eating ALOT of cheetoes... i think im going thru 3 full bags a month now because i LOVEEE my avocado and cucumber sandwich... but i need cheetoes with it lol... i mean i do "burn" off those calories... but i dunno im worried i gained weight this week because of it... So for mondays weight in... if i gain weight or dont see a change, im gonna have to stop eating cheetoes so often :/ which kinda ruins my sandwich... -_- what am i gonna eat now! oh well we'll see... considering i havent hit that many bumps along this weight loss journey, i dont feel too bad if this week is a fuck up again.

Wish me luck! gawdddd

Thursday, October 8, 2009

New October Challenge

So today i visited my schools health center to get my 2nd body composition analysis. The last time i took this test was about 6 months ago... and I did get good results. I lost uh... whatever you call those numbers... but i lost "stuff" on every bit of my body.

HOWEVER.... I did lose 8lbs of Lean weight while losing 10lbs of Fat weight...

It is great that i lost 10lbs of fat but i need to gain back some lean weight.

SO the october challange is going to change... It has to change since the challenge was to lose 5lbs before October 31 and im already 2lbs away from my first goal weight... so now heres the new challenge.

**Workout: Cardio 60 minutes 5-6days a week/Weight Training 20-30 mintues twice a week**
- I will also TRY to not weigh myself as often as I do since im planning on gaining a little bit of muscle weight... but I should lose weight weight as i do so...
-It will help break my mental wall that doing weights will make me gain weight (like instead of being 128 next week, i might be 130). But i did promise myself that once i get close to or at my first goal weight, that i would incorporate more weight training...
-So Id like to gain 5lbs of Lean Muscle, and lose 8lbs of Fat Weight to lead me to be 125lbs total (now this is my ultimate goal, to be between 120-125lbs).
-This will be very nice because even though i have lost 20lbs (since 150, not counting the 157) i do have that problem where i feel flabby and i do feel flabby.
-We're considering that in one month ive only done weight training like twice lol so im aiming to do it 8 times each month.

So this new challenge will be from October (starting today) to beginning of December. Thats about 2 months to hopefully be where i want to be or close to. If i continue to lose 1lb a week AND gain a little of weight... i should i have lost 6-7lbs by December.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

INSANE habits lol

when i think about the past... and my eating habits... i always told myself that if i started a diet, that i would aim to eat less than 2000cal and that was a good goal for me. THEN about when i started the summer diet this year, i told myself id reduce my caloric intake to 1500 (when i say my intake... i mean my intake minus the calories burned from exercise). NOW recently... ive been striving to eat close to 1000cal.

Im wondering if its unhealthy to have an overall intake of close to 1000cal (for example... i plan to only take in 1200cal BUT i will also burn off 300-480cals from exercise leaving a remaining intake of about 900-800cal). I do try to eat every 2-3 hours and ive never really been starving... and even if i feel hungry, it will only be for a short while. Its just that now im starting to really analyze what i put into my mouth. For example today, I had a moderate breakfast of one english muffin (130) with butter and a bit of jam. Then for lunch (bout 3 hours later) i had my cucumber and avocado sandwich on 2 wheat slices with about 2 cups of hot cheetoes (500). After class which was about 4 hours since lunch, i was starting to feel really hungry but its too early for dinner (i try to eat no earlier than 6pm) so i was thinking about getting some starbucks (also to stay awake...) BUT i was getting anxious about how many calories it would be.

SO... adding up from breakfast to now, ive eatin 300+500+260 = 1060cal - 440 (workout) = 620cal. Ive had an intake of 620calories so far today after taking out what i burned. I know some people who would say thats nothing... but my mind starts to consider whats for DINNER... which i think is worth about 400cals leaving me with a grand end of the day total of about 1020cals.

Sounds small? Yea... ive been eating like this for like 3 weeks and i think thats why i lost 3lbs last week. I dunno i think im getting really anal about this lol but hey... ill lose weight right?

Then i think... how and what do normal people eat to maintain their weight (with 2000cal/day)? I get a little anxious trying to think of all the foods i woudl have to eat to total 2000cals or close to it...not really a scared anxious but like just over analyzing. Because although i like my diet now and how sparce it is (yet varied... i try to eat lots of fruits, veg, meats, etc), im afraid that if i keep this up forever, ill just keep on losing weight (or at least go past my minimum desired weight).

i dunno, im an overanalysis person :]

ok im gonna finish my starbucks!

Monday, October 5, 2009

Waiting for food

Well first of all... this will be a quick blog. I apparently lost more than 3lbs this week which I find strange... so I didn't log what the scale said (129.2lbs) and instead I logged 129.8lbs. I told myself I am not going to freak out if I gain a pound for this weeks weigh in cus losing 3lbs has never happened (like 2.3lbs at the most). But I still am happy :] I guess I am finally in the 120's!! AMAZING... I never thought I'd get this far....

But ok heres lunch. I noticed that this week I did alot of the same thing... I literally ate to live. You know that saying... do you eat to live or live to eat? Well this week I ate to live... like right now. I look at what I grabbed for lunch and I just ate a Ritz Crackerfull (130cal), strawberry applesauce (80cal) and a few grapes with water... and now I play the waiting game... waiting to not feel hungry.

I think about my old eating habits when I was heavier (20+lbs heavier :O) and man... I would NEVEr do this, I mean waiting for my tummy to feeel full. Its crazy.

But anyways... Im gonna get me some Chipotle for dinner and tomorrows dinner lol (One bowl lasts me like 2 days) for my reward... and im going to rest my body and not work out today... then yea. Bye! Yay 129lbs!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

YAY! Size 6

No I'm not a size 6... but I was able to fit into a size 6 in Express jeans like... I could button them up lol but they were still really snug. So I bought them! and they are my goal size pants :3 (like I explained before). I'm sure some day I'll fit into some size 3/4 pants... but for now I want size 6 (keeping in mind that the biggest size pants I've worn has been a size 13/14. Crazy huh?)

SO I was uber happy to buy those pants from Express because not only were they a size that almost fit me but they were on sale! Usually their pants are like $59... and I got these for $16! WOO. It's a sign.

Anyways thats what happened so far today... hah. Awesomenessss

Friday, October 2, 2009

Bye Bye OCP (for now)

I've decided it was time to stop taking my OCP till about December... (yay for a 2 month break on the stuff). Since certain events occurred, there really is no point in taking them anymore till certain events happen (lol). The only thing is... I'm worried that I might lose a tiny bit of weight (even if its just 1 or 2 lbs) after I stop taking it. I do remember that unlike the other OCP I used to take (which put 5lbs on my body), this dosage didn't seem to have an effect on my weight... so hopefully I won't gain anything back when I decide to start taking them again. That would honestly be a boner killer if say I lost 9lbs since I stopped (which is how much I'm planning on losing)... and if I gained even just 1 or 2 lbs back. At least I would know why right? I guess I should just get used to it because I'm going to have to be on and off it for a while. And I also guess it wouldn't be so bad cus by that time I should be at the weight I want to be or at least very close to it so I shouldn't panic if I turn out to be 125lbs while back on the OCP.

Well hope this works out!